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Nerves, guilt and a dose of anxiety – Three days til Blissdom

There are so many things going through my head.

I’m way anxious about leaving to go to Blissdom on Thursday. I haven’t started packing yet (I’m totally putting it off), but we have started prepping for me being gone. It’s the first time in Noah’s 10.5 months that I will be away from him overnight, and I am scared to death.

Bobby worries that I don’t think he’ll take good care of the kiddo, but it’s not that at all. I think they will probably have a blast.

Maybe I’m a little afraid they will have too good a time. Without me. That I’ll miss out on something big (like Noah going from occasional few-independent-stepper to full-time, bona fide walker). I’m afraid when I get back that he’ll be “over me,” as I told Bobby this morning.

But I can’t let those things stop me from doing something I’m looking forward to, something for me. And it’s oh, so tempting to do that. But I think part of doing that would be for ease and comfort; it would allow me to put off facing down fears and anxieties that have riddled me since I gave birth to Noah.

I have to do this eventually. And the sooner I do it, the sooner I get back to normal living. I hope.

I think it’s probably normal to feel some amount of guilt (specifically as a mom) when you do something like this for yourself. My blogging (and even my freelance, which is not that closely connected with my blogging, for the most part) is not supporting us. It’s mostly a hobby, something I enjoy. So going to a conference like this seems sort of frivolous.

It’s times like these, though, when I appreciate fully having such a supportive husband, who reassures me that he supports me and wants me to do things that will make me happy.

I think the challenge for me is going to be leaving the guilt and anxiety behind. I think a touch of excited nervousness is OK, and when it comes to the conference itself, that’s what I feel. I’m excited to meet new people and hear speakers on topics that I’m interested in. I’m looking forward to finding an item or two at the handmade marketplace. I’m hoping to make some connections that will benefit my blogging and freelance potential for the future.

Blissdom is definitely going to be a stretch for me, but I think it’s a stretch that needs to happen. I could let myself become a social shut-in and use Noah as an excuse for that, or I can start pushing myself. One of those will let me grow as a person and actually better myself. And I think it’ll actually help me be a better mother, because I will be maintaining my identity and showing Noah what it means to pursue your passions and dreams.

So I’m nervous and feeling a little guilty and anxious, but I’m also excited. Blissdom is going to be great.

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Do you like cute, hand-stitched/appliqued kids clothes or love to see a tutu on a little girl? Please be sure to check out my Blissdom sponsor, Eleanore’s Treasures!

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Please be sure to stop back by on Wednesday for an exciting (at least to me!) announcement regarding The Family Math!

Now that the freak-out is past, I’m gettin’ my Bliss on

I'm Going, Y'all! - BlissdomIn just over two weeks, I’m giving my PPA the finger and going to Blissdom, a national blogging conference that I’ve heard nothing but good things about.

As it draws closer, I really am getting more excited. I’ve been part of a Facebook group for Blissdom newbies, and the excitement is definitely contagious. And following #Blissdom on Twitter has already given me a sense of the community I have to look forward to.

So what have I been up to in preparation?

Gotta be honest, compared to some of these amazing bloggers that are going, I haven’t done a whole lot. I ordered business cards, which is a must for Blissdom. I’ve been working hard to get some freelance work that’s due this month done before I go. I’m also preparing to move my blog over to its new address SOON!

I also put together my schedule for the actual event, and it looks awesome. The speakers and topics are incredible, and I really can’t even imagine how much I’ll learn while I’m there.

On the homefront, Bobby and I have talked about how things will go with him and Noah holding down the fort while I’m out of town. The biggest thing was finding someone to take care of him the night Bobby has to work while I’m gone and arranging for them to pick him up from day care. Thankfully our friends Jesse and Michael are up for it!

On a personal level, thankfully I am feeling better about going to Blissdom. You may remember that I was freaking. out. when I first bought my ticket. The PPA still rears its ugly head now and again, but I’m feeling a little more in control and confident. I also have a growing list of bloggers I’ve connected with on Facebook and Twitter who I’m looking forward to meeting!

So, veterans of Blissdom and other blogging conferences, what else do I need to do in the coming weeks to prepare? What kinds of clothes should I take? Any other tips?

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Do you like cute, hand-stitched/appliqued kids clothes or love to see a tutu on a little girl? Please be sure to check out my Blissdom sponsor, Eleanore’s Treasures!

SOC Sunday: Undistracted free time? What’s that?

#SOCsunday This is my first time doing Stream of Consciousness Sunday in a while, and this is a great prompt from Fadra. Of course, it mostly prompted me to ramble, but I was distracted, see?

Today’s prompt: When you sit down to write a post, do you get dedicated, devoted time? Are you surrounded by distractions, mental or physical?

When I first read Fadra’s prompt for today, my immediate reaction was, “Ha. Hahahahaha. Oh, that’s funny.”

I really don’t get a lot of undistracted writing time, but when I do I like to crank out several blog posts at once. I think that’s probably how a lot of moms do it.

A good example of what my writing time usually looks like: As I sit here now, I have a cup of coffee on my right and a babbling baby on my left. He is saying, “Ma ma. Na na nu nu. ah ah ah ah.” And he’s throwing every toy I hand him into the floor. Pleasant. And incredibly distracting.

I also write a lot of posts during my lunch hour at work. That’s a little less distracting, but there’s always the potential for being interrupted since I’m still working away in my office. It’s a little easier though.

There are those rare nights where I set aside time after Noah’s asleep (usually on nights when Bobby has gone out to do something), and I feel like I probably get the most writing done on those occasions. Of course, I’m also easily distracted without extra help from baby or hubby, so I often turn to the internet, television or a book (Harry Potter, of late …so worth the re-read) to put off writing.

And there’s likely the crux of the issue. I would get a lot more done if I wasn’t a procrastinator and a bit lazy. I like to waste time doing mindless stuff. Part of it might be because I write as a profession, so I spend a lot of my work time writing. But the bigger part really is just that I fill my time at home — my free time, mind you, not time with Noah and Bobby — with sort of pointless stuff a lot of the time.

Well, now I need to figure out what to do about it. I guess it’s good that I’ve put it out there, but I kind of feel like I’ve put it out there before and nothing’s changed. So hopefully I will be able to start making some small changes. Eh, who knows?

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This was my 5 minute Stream of Consciousness Sunday post. It’s five minutes of your time and a brain dump. Want to try it? Here are the rules…

  • Set a timer and write for 5 minutes.
  • Write an intro to the post if you want but don’t edit the post. No proofreading or spellchecking. This is writing in the raw.
  • Publish it somewhere. Anywhere. The back door to your blog if you want. But make it accessible.
  • Add the Stream of Consciousness Sunday badge to your post.
  • Link up your post at All Things Fadra.
  • Visit your fellow bloggers and show some love.

Merry Christmas — and Blogmas!

Blogmas Worthy

I’ve been away for a few days visiting family and enjoying Noah’s first Christmas, but I hope everyone had a happy holiday! I’m planning to post some photos and videos of what we’ve been up to the past week or so, but not tonight. We just got back into town around 6, had dinner with friends and are about to head to bed.

Some exciting news: One of my blog posts (“I deserve better than to be judged: On breastfeeding vs. formula” has been recognized on All Things Fadra for a Blogmas 2011 Award! Head over to her blog to check out her list of “Top 20 Blog Posts to Make You Feel.” I’m at #11!

I’m on BlogHer!

Syndicated on BlogHer.com

 I am so excited to be syndicated on BlogHer today! I submitted my post about our decision not to do Santa with Noah, and the editors there decided they liked it enough to feature it!

Please stop by and check it out. I’d love for you to chime in with your opinion on the topic, too!

My #mugswap2011 loot!

A few weeks ago, I saw multiple bloggers I follow on Twitter tweeting about something called Mug Swap 2011. And I was curious. I love coffee. I love new mugs.

So I visited Liz at A Belle, A Bean and A Chicago Dog for the details. Basically participants got on Zazzle and created a blog using their blog’s branding. Sounded like fun and a good way to maybe get some promotion for this ol’ blog, so I signed up.

Plus, like I said, I like new mugs. I also like getting presents.

I was really excited earlier this week when I got home to find a box waiting for me at the front door. This was what was in it:

Well, minus the hot chocolate stains. My mug came from Elaine at The MissElaine-eous Life. I love the mug, which has all her contact info and a picture of her beautiful family.

Now I can hardly wait for my recipient to get her mug! This was a lot of fun, and I will likely participate again next year!