First, thanks to all who read and provided feedback and stories and encouragement related to breast feeding. It’s been a tough couple of weeks, and this has been weighing heavily on me.
After weighing everything as best I could and talking it over with Bobby, I’ve decided to suspend breast feeding and pumping for the time being. I have been incredibly stressed since Noah was born — to the point that it’s been making me physically ill. I battled the flu-like infection the week he was in NICU and the following week, and I’ve been dealing with some massive stress and anxiety since he’s been born. It’s been a combo of being a new mom, having a baby in NICU, being sick, the situation with my dad, Noah’s digestive issues and not really having enough sleep. But it’s literally made me unable to eat, and when I do, my stomach hurts constantly.
We also found out this afternoon that Noah’s sodium is still low, which means he is on a special formula at least until they can get it balanced out.
This was not an easy decision, but I need to be able to function and be happy and actually enjoy Noah. I made the decision this morning, and it’s at least helped some today. If I am able to pick it back up once I am physically and emotionally feeling healthier, I likely will, but for now I am, as Bobby put it, making the best decision I can for Noah and me.